Feb
I used to look like a barbie doll and now I a 46 years old and about 30 or 40 pounds over weight I’ve been taking care of my daughter with spina bifida for 20 years ( and nothing else) she was always real sweet but somewhere along the line (probably my fault) she has turned into one of those children who are always miserable and wants her mom to never forget it. I am at the point of self destruction (not that would be new to me) I also have a 13 year old daughter who is so sweet and good always trying to perk up her sis and me. (which isn’t fair to her) I feel so guilty that I often wish myself dead. the only reason I don't kill myself is that I know no one will take care of my girls right. I love them so much and I know the best thing for both of them would be to take care of myself but I have had such a crappy child hood and adult life that I really cant find one little thing to like me. I really need to find some inside help and I know enough to know it has to come from with in. and I’ve lost all hope for myself but really (for my kids sake) need to find it again. please read this and be nice about your answer.
Answer:
I think you need to seek help. I would go and see your family physician, and tell them how you feel. I think you also need to be aware of the good job you’ve done so far and still doing.
I also think you need to take care of your self and do things that make you feel superior.
But start by seeing the family physician, and maybe medication with therapy because no one deserve to feel bad. I think you sound like a very brave person and do things that you and your kids enjoy. Try to stick to one day at a time and do not let tiny things bother you.
Definitely value yourself and remember you’re doing the ideal job you can.