Jul
I've noticed a pattern thats been going on for nearly 15 years. I'm multi talented in the arts and constantly feel overwhelmed to the point of avoidance. I psych. and emot. abuse myself with name calling, punching my legs, screaming, breaking things, being tortured.I don’t know how to resolve this dysfunctional relationship i have with myself.I realize it's an unconscious pattern i learned from my narcissistic, abandoning, angry tortured artist, runaway mom. it's driving me insane that I'm so creative but don't know how to like the process. I feel like i'm going for attention more than the love. I'm impulsive and constantly seeking, writing, bouncing, flailing and have a hard time of staying, editing, appreciating, loving what i have. Now I'm a tortured artist and I dont' want to be.Yesterday i cried on a tree, had a few tantrums, yelled at myself, did 5 separate creative things without finishing anything. i do so much i don't know what i really love. how2stop destructive cycle?
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Get professional help. you seem to be quite self aware & want to change. If it's been going on for 15 years, you need help. Even if you already have, go back. See a physician. See a therapist or counsellor. Try cognitive behavioural therapy, it can be really effective. There are some good self help books about it, but seriously try and see a good therapist. You have probably inherited a lot of it from your mother, whether through genetics, or just learned behaviour. It's not the sought of thing you can just will yourself out of, especially if it's gone on for so long. You need help.
By the way, doing some voluntary work is good advice. I don't think that would work on it's own, but while you’re trying other things, it can be really helpful to focus on others and get out of self-destructive thinking for a while. While you're thinking of someone else, you're not thinking of yourself. And until you can think of yourself in a positive way, that's probably not a bad thing.
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You have to accept yourself absolutely. But there seems to be more than just easy self esteem issues going on. I would strongly advise you to go see a therapist about your self harming; it could really lead to problems in the future.
Maybe when you feel like self harming yourself, you need to ask yourself why you don’t respect yourself. Really think about it. You don’t have to be a tortured artist if you don’t want to be..
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one thing you could do, is FINISH the work u start, a piece of art, or create something watever.. if u find its good and u care about it.. just STOP for the moment dont continue on to begin a new project.. just take some time to enjoy ur work, and let urself know its impressive, compliment urself, be proud of what uve made and just let urself know, that ur the only person who couldve created it, no one else has made it its all urs and its something only you have.
this might help u to appreciate urself more
xx
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You have conquered the biggest thing, that’s admitting your problem. I highly advocate you see your doctor for a referral to someone in the Mental Health field. It could be that you need some counseling to help work through these issues. Good luck.
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Well u need to believe in yourself.. u should be proud of urself that u have so many talents with u.. when u begin something then start it with the aim of completing it no matter what..
Even then it continues then it would be best to see a psychiatrist.. there the doc will help u out.. Trust me.. 
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Your body is telling you to do something useful. Go out and volunteer for local non-profit organizations, hospitals or community services. You will thank yourself and feel superior
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Look into the mirror and say,”I am beautiful” until you believe it. It works and you Begin to admire yourself after a while.
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I used to feel like this then I realized that all you need is love!!! Just start loving yourself. Be happy. We only have one life so live it to the fullest!!
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you should speak to your physician, if its serious, like you hurting yourself, you might need to go on medication
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maybe yur bipolar like me